Life Update 002: Which Way?
Hello, hello, hello! It feels as though we’ve been waiting with baited breath for the year 2020. Now that it’s here how do you feel? So far this has been my greatest year yet.
I did a brief recap of my 2019 on my podcast The Climb but beyond the events of the year I’ve never felt better than I do right now. My relationships have been thriving, my understanding of self and life has been deepening, and finally it feels like the wind is on my back work-wise. Now, which way should I run first?
It’s easy to think that if you stay in your own lane you’ll be able to go very far, very fast but that’s only if you are able to see what’s ahead of you. To put it plain, I feel so free and unburdened but I have no idea what to do next. It’s not the best feeling. My saving grace is when my mind gets cloudy my body remembers how things work. A friend of mine told me that as we try change our behaviors we believe that it’s our minds holding us back when really it’s our bodies that reject going to the gym or eating kale because that’s not what it’s used to. Conversely, I’m so used to going at a high speed that I know if I keep moving - in any direction - the answers will find me.
I mentioned on the podcast that though in many ways I am operating in new territory I’m not starting over, I’m starting from experience. I feel as though I’ve lived so much in these past 27 years that there’s no way I could discredit everything that I’ve seen and done. I’m so excited to make new moves and soar to new heights. The next chapter of my life requires a new vulnerability as well as an elevated badass boss energy.
Last week I turned 28. Birthdays for me are such a big deal but in recent years I’ve had soul-crushing experiences that made me want to cower and skip acknowledging the day completely. It took courage to mention and actually emphasize how important this day was to me with my friends and family. Thankfully I have the best people in my corner who totally understood. I had a beautiful dinner with my faves and really enjoyed my trip to DC. Getting over everything that’s happened in the past lets me know it’s possible to move forward with a smile and my scars alike.
How did you start your 2020? What experiences are you moving past to pave a new path? Tell me in the comments below, tweet me, or share privately in an email.
xx
Miss Suber